All to Jesus I surrender

Good evening everyone :)
Our Father has been teaching me a lot about trust as of late. I had no idea the lengths He was gonna push me to, but I trust that He is faithful and will not give us, His kids, more than we can handle. Trusting our God is incredible, cause we can pour all that we are into His almighty hands without holding back and He just holds us closer. It can also be a challenge as things in life spin out of control and we sit confused and dazed trying to figure out what just happened.
So... I figured this was probably the best way to tell you all the events of the last few weeks. (A little off note but, I apologize I have not been answering my phone much since this all happened.) Nearly a month ago, as most of you probably already know, I began to suffer from incredible migraines. I have been healthy as a kumquat since the day I was born but these headaches made me wilt on the couch for two weeks. I visited drs, each who said that I had tension headaches and I just needed to tough it out, with the help of pain meds. At the 2.5 week mark after I had been puking for a few days, I finally went to a final dr who became very interested in my curious condition: body in good condition but head = all screwed up. He sent me to an eye dr and to an MRI the same day to get to the bottom of it all. At the MRI I discovered I had a mass the size of baseball in the left frontal lobe of my brain.
In a little shock we returned to Palouse to tell the news, then I was driven to the hospital where Em and I were flown that night to Harborview in Seattle. I spent 2 nights in the ICU as I was carefully watched and tested for a crazy number parasites, diseases, etc that I may have had due to all my traveling. No answers were found and I ended up moving to UW Medical Center. I spent the rest of the week at UW visited by so many of my most amazing friends and family as well as two teams of drs who were still trying to figure things out.
It all came down to six hours of surgery last Sunday as the tumor was mostly removed and my head was resealed. By the grace of our Father I have been healing rapidly (not pretty at all but well :) I was released from the hospital this past Tuesday afternoon and Em and I moved up to my Grandma's house for a couple days to continue healing. Still no answered questions as to what had been in my head.
Yesterday I returned to the hospital for answers. I visited with the dr who had performed my surgery and he informed me that after lots of biopsy analysis it had been determined that my tumor had been and still is a glioblastoma/astroblastoma. These are the cells that in simple terms are the non-neuronal glue that allow your brain maintain homeostasis. Perfectly natural and fearfully and wonderfully made, mine had kinda freaked out. The tumor has probably been there for several years but last month when the headaches began the tumor had begun to bleed.
So, what does this all mean? the tumor I have is rather rare, few people in the US get them, and those that do are usually men 50+ in years. The tumor is rated from 1 to 4, 1 and 2 are benign and 3 and 4 are malignant, I had all four stages, with a good portion being number 4. Needless to say I was not too thrilled to hear that I have cancer. Later I spoke with a radiologist who gave me the stats and options I have before me. Trying to be an optimist, it does not look too pretty. Thankfully they do not have to open my head again and remove more, but it will require aggressive radiation and chemotherapy that will Lord willing begin as asap. Again His will be done, we pray that this treatment will lengthen my life, cause without it I will completely lose my higher brain function.
Here we now stand. Before our faithful Father, in whom I and we MUST trust. Without Him we have nothing and life is truly not worth living. He has said He will not give us more than we can handle, gotta take Him at His word. He has never let us down and I know He never will. He is our refuge and our strength, our ever present help in trouble. Ill admit Im currently dazed and confused, but He is our Rock.
Immediate future...His will be done again, but its looking like I will be receiving 6 weeks of radiation (5 days a week) at UW Medical cause they treat about 300 people a year with my kind of cancer, more than anyone else in WA. Then I will be receiving 6 months to 2 years of chemotherapy. The drs want to begin as soon as possible just to give me more of a chance, but my head must heal first. We will probably begin at the beginning of Marchish.
Ill keep you all posted at to what is going on. This is the biggest hurdle I and our family have ever come across, but with His strength we can do this. Thank you all sooooooooooooo much for your prayers thus far! He is good in all this. God bless!
In Him, Alana